i met him first in 97
on my show –
he was promoting 7th heaven
a show i watched
because catherine hicks
from ryan’s hope
the best soap opera ever on television
also starred in it
stephen was on my show many times
we spoke often about TM
he introduced me to it in fact
back in 97
i practice TM daily
20 mins in the am
20 in the pm
a mantra –
i pray
stephen is an artist
pottery – ceramics
we had a show together
my paintings – his pottery
at THE ROCKLAND COUNTY CENTER FOR THE ARTS
the event was a success
stephen sent me a potters wheel
the week after –
so sweet
i learned how to throw pots
like him
i liked him
a lot
stephen collins
priestly – handsome – artistic – kind
stephen collins
married 29 years
and now here we all r
they showed me the clip in the morning
20 seconds
thats all i could watch
of his his apology tour
katie couric was r guest
i was sure she was gonna do 2 him
what she did 2 sarah palin
hit him with his truth
right between the eyes
expose him for who he was
“what newspapers do u read sarah?”
she saved us all then
this time
she didn’t
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in 1973 –
he was 25 years old
i was ten
same age as his first victim
he took the hand of 10 year old girl
and used it to jerk himself off
as a child
who was used in similar ways
by a man i trusted
every cell in me remembered
“we both just sat there – we didn’t move a muscle”
uummmmm –
after u came on the kids hand – u mean?
stephen …
right?
u are not equals
she was an innocent child
a baby girl
u have a daughter for gods sake
were u able to resist the urge to touch her ?
how noble …
congrats
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in case u wonder
what ur man sized penis –
ur abuse of power
ur lack of impulse control did to that kid
i will tell u a bit about me
sex is not fun
not now
not ever
it is married to a lingering terror
joy evaporated
my body became my enemy
i would not love it
take care of it
treat it well
it had betrayed me
caused such pain and humiliation
i did not want 2 feel
2 know
like many survivors of childhood sexual abuse
i became obese
Obesity Action Coalition » Sexual Abuse and Obesity
i have struggled with severe depression
Effects Of Child Sexual Abuse: Depression And Other Mental Health Conditions
i have anxiety disorders
Effects of CSA on the Victim
shame confines me
Into the Light: sexual abuse – support info and resources
i bet stephen
there is a 52 year old woman – like me
sitting in her house
still frightened
her perspective skewed
by u
ur casual lack of accountability
for her and for me
has wounded us
once again
u –
stephen collins
u
u r an archetype
as is bill cosby
pedophile / rapist
how dare i
how dare i not ?
a hidden narrative none wishes 2 be part of
yet we all participate in
unspoken
rape
incest
race
there is good news
we can heal r selves
RAINN | Rape, Abuse and Incest National Network | RAINN: The nation’s largest anti-sexual assault organization.One of “America’s 100 Best Charities” —Worth magazine
JONI MITCHELL IS ESSENTIAL FOR HEALING
Love Has Many Faces: A Quartet, A Ballet, Waiting to Be Danced
The story hit the news
From coast to coast
They said you beat the girl
You loved the most
Your charitable acts
Seemed out of place
With the beauty
With your fist marks on her face
Your buddies all stood by
They bet their fortunes
And their fame
That she was out of line
And you were not to blame
Six hundred thousand doctors
Are putting on rubber gloves
And they’re poking
At the miseries made of love
They say they’re learning
How to spot
The battered wives
Among all the women
They see bleeding through their lives
I bleed–
For your perversity–
These red words that make a stain
On your white-washed claim that
She was out of line
And you were not to blame
I heard your baby say
When he was only three
“Daddy, let’s get some girls
One for you and one for me.”
His mother had the frailty
You despise
And the looks
You love to drive to suicide
Not one wet eye around
Her lonely little grave
Said, “He was out of line girl
You were not to blame.”
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