my font size is 36
with glasses on
i turned 56
we all need help 2 see

Only Fox News
a chid covering his eyes
believing he can’t be seen
a tantrum

he didn’t parent his kids
in any way
he doesn’t know
what we moms and dads do

u never let a tantrum work
if u do
ur doomed
they will get bigger n bigger

til the collapse
which always comes
as humans we break
part of the design

Only Fox News
Only the white men
Only the missing children
Only the raped katie johnson’s

he is breaking
before r eyes and ears
his lies don’t work
the NFL gig is over

we see u Donald J Trump
we know u fuck w/anyone u want
dedicated public servants
something u know nothing of

u hurt people
women and children first
those who believed u next
now all but u

AMERICA is woke
And ur shitshow is done
donald from queens
its over

this is my fight song
joni is the salve 4 all my wounds
lose urself in her lyrics
swim in her songs

she saves me
over and over
reminding me
2 shake my fists at lightning

hold on all
fight back the dark
with all ur might
and with joni

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“No tongue in the bell
And the fishwives yell
But they might as well be mute
So you get to keep the pictures
That don’t seem like much
Cold white keys under your fingers
Now you’re thinking
“That’s no substitute
It just don’t do it
Like the song of a warm warm body
Loving your touch”

In the court they carve your legend
With an apple in its jaw
And the women that you wanted
They get their laughs
Long silk stockings
On the bedposts of refinement
You’re too raw
They think you’re too raw
It’s the judgement of the moon and stars
Your solitary path
Draw yourself a bath
Think what you’d like to have
For supper
Or take a walk
A park
A bridge
A tree
A river
Revoked but not yet cancelled
The gift goes on
In silence
In a bell jar
Still a song

You’ve got to shake your fists at lightning now
You’ve got to roar like forest fire
You’ve got to spread your light like blazes
All across the sky
They’re going to aim the hoses on you
Show ’em you won’t expire
Not till you burn up every passion
Not even when you die
Come on now
You’ve got to try
If you’re feeling contempt
Well then you tell it
If you’re tired of the silent night
Jesus well then you yell it
Condemned to wires and hammers
Strike every chord that you feel
That broken trees
And elephant ivories conceal”

© Joni Mitchell

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SO IT WAS 1996 I ASSUME
MY FIRST YEAR ON TV
AS A DAYTIME TALK SHOW HOST
A GIRL MERV

I WAS HONORED –
SO OFTEN IT WAS TAXING
I HAD PARKER
MORE BABIES WERE ON THE WAY

I LONGED TO BE HOME
AND SHUT OUT THE MAKE UP
THE SPOTLIGHT
THE NOISE

THIS WAS A WOMENS EVENT
NORA WAS THERE –
I CAUGHT HER EYE
WAITED FOR HER LAUGH ALONE

I MADE A JOKE
ABOUT HOW HORRIBLE
THE SOUND SYSTEM WAS
HOW WE NEEDED TO FIX IT

EMBARRASSING
AS WOMEN IN TV
2 HAVE NO AUDIO
WHATSOEVER

————————

SO JOYS HOMOPHOBIC BLOGS
MENTIONED ME
ON OCCASSION
IN CRUEL WAYS

SOME ASSUMED
GUESSED – SURMISED
IT WAS ANTI GAY
HER SAYING “NO ONE LOVES ROSIE”

AND OTHER CRAP
FAT COMMENTS TOO
FEW CAN RESIST
OINK OINK

===============

I AM NEW TO JOY REID
ABOUT 6 MONTHS AGO
I STARTED WATCHING AM JOY
AFTER SEEING HER SUB FOR MADDOW

I DIDNT KNOW MUCH ABOUT HER
SHE WAS SMART
AND QUICK AND FAIR AND FEMALE
A SISTERFRIEND I WAS SURE

IN MY MIND I AM PALS WITH RACHEL
WE DOUBLE DATE
IN MY MIND
SPEND TIME AN THE CAPE HANGING OUT

NEVER MET EITHER ONE
RACHEL OR JOY
BUT I FEEL LIKE
I KNOW THEM

==========================

SOMEHOW KATHY GRIFFIN
KNOWS JOY REID
HOW
I AM NOT SURE

SHE TEXTS ME
CALL HER
SHE IS COOL
SHE IS SORRY

WE TALK
SHE TELLS ME
WE MET ONCE
IN 1996

SHE WAS AN INTERN
I WAS GETTING AN AWARD
WITH NORA DEAD CENTER
SMILING

I SHOWED UP WITH MY PUBLICIST LOIS SMITH
JOY WAS ASSIGNED TO ME
AND APPARENTLY
I WAS HORRIBLE TO HER

I AM TAKEN ABACK
RIGHT AWAY
WHEN SHE SAYS THIS
AS SHE IS A BLACK YOUNG WOMAN

ITS NOT IN MY DNA
I OVER COMPENSATE
I SEE THE STRUGGLE
I CONNECT

SHE LEFT OUT DETAILS
BUT I HURT HER
HEART AND SOUL
AND SHE HELD A GRUDGE TIL 2011?

SO SHE SAYS
AND I THINK OK
GOOD – IT WASNT HOMOPHOBIA
NOT ANTI GAY

JUST ANTI ME
PERSONAL AND SPECIFIC
I DID HER WRONG
SHE REACTED WITH UNKIND POSTS

5 YEARS LATER
SHE WAS STILL RECOVERING
FROM THE DAMAGE I INFLICTED
ME – COMPLETELY UNAWARE

I APOLOGIZE
CAUSE WHATEVER SHE SAW
THOUGHT FELT ASSUMED
– SHE WAS WOUNDED BY IT

WE STUMBLE THROUGH
A QUIET CONVERSATION
I WONDER HOW SHE GOT FROM THOSE BLOGS
TO HERE AND NOW

FIERCE SMART UNFLAPPABLE
REPRESENTING
MADDOW BUD
“CANT GET THERE FROM HERE”

PEPPERIDGE FARM REMEMBERS
SO DOES THE WEB
HIT SEND
AND ITS YOURS FOREVER

A TATTOO OF U
IN PIXELS
NO DO OVER
NO OOOPS

IF U FUCK UP
FESS UP

DO ONE INTERVIEW
MADDOW MAYBE
LIVE – LAY IT ALL OUT
TURN EVERY STONE

THEN COME WHAT MAY
I BELIEVE SHE WILL STAY
AND CONTINUE TO OWN ALL SHE IS
A WARRIOR FOR DEMOCRACY

I WILL FOREVER WONDER
WHAT I COULD HAVE DONE
TO HURT HER SO
I AM TRULY SORRY

I wake with the sun
And walk amidst everything
she has rinsed in rose gold

I smile as the grass bends to wave hello
The wind pirouettes
And graciously sends
A soulful breeze
Through emerald trees
Whose clapping leaves
With smooth edges
And perfect pleats
make it so
I am touched by the trees

Yet it is the yellowness of the flowers
that makes my heart take a knee

When I witness daffodils rejoicing
with their stems stretching
Whose perfectly petalled faces
Are upturned in praise
Beneath a buttery sun
The best preacher there ever was.

My hearts’ hymn is Hallelujah
My soul is in full bloom
As my body flowers into the Spring of its life

For I feel
And I see
And I know
I am as rich as I will ever need to be

For how generous are the daffodils
in their fields of charity

Glittering like gems
Gleaming like gold
Giving all their riches away for free.