Question from Tray

My LT love/fiancé died unexpectedly & complicatedly in June and I miss him more than can be imagined. I have had health struggles since July, and was estranged from my borderline mother since Nov. six days ago I lost my job. So much loss in such a short span that it is hard not to give up. I try, but even the cat died. 51 and all alone. Wow.