Question from dee

Today is a cry my eyes out, smoke every cigarette available,m bite my nails, try to hold on kinda day. It sucks. All I want is a hug from my nephew who hanged himself 4 yrs ago. I know it will pass, I know it will, it has before. I will wash my hair and walk my dog in the rain so no one can see the tears. I KNOW IT WILL PASS!