a few days after

looks like its time to go
a complete break
toward the positive

i managed to not watch it
til yesterday
and already …
like trying to scream underwater

says pink
on her brilliant new cd
the truth about love
the woman is right

i have had only small sips
knowing one gulp could take me out
just enough to feel the floor weaken
chutes and ladders

christmas is coming
and with it miamis sun
heart healing always
warm me i pray

gonna try to wean myself
from the net
its become
too intrusive

“let me not hit up my twitter
like its a crack pipe –
keep the browser closed”
said ze frank

a ze a day
keeps the gloom away
i want to thank him for that
thank u ze

so off i go
back to reality
without the virtual
back to reading and writing

and being here
The Sweetness – YouTube

16 Responses to 'a few days after'

  1. JenniferT says:

    Your twitter feed – oy!

    That kind of bullying can’t be good for your health. I hope you can take a break and enjoy some peace and Miami sunshine. Hopefully, after a while the gun advocate crazies and DT will find someone else to obsess over.

    Merry Xmas to you and your family, and have a great vacation.

    Peace, yellow and hugs.

  2. Angela says:

    I feel your pain Ro, this is a nightmare! My husband and I have been crying since this happened. I have not seen a dry eye in my family of mostly men. This hit hard! I turned off the tv for a few days also, but then when i signed online i saw the letters to friends and just about lost it. Praying that new laws come about. Whatever your influence can do to help I am sure you are there to lend your voice. Take care Ro, praying for us all! xxxooo

  3. Kelly says:

    I fell into the sadness way early on. From the minute I heard I was consumed. I went back 2 my Kindergarten class Monday and made it thru the whole day w/o breaking down, until I drove home. That innocent age, full of wonder, torn from those families. Their babies gone, tiny caskets, tiny mourners, its all too much. The holidays will provide a much needed break, for us. But not for Newtown, which is what I’ll be thinking. 🙁 Hope you find peace in your sunny place. Looking for mine.

  4. joni says:

    take care of you and yours! peace, joy and love.

  5. paulawaula says:

    Turn it all off, take the time you need. We’ll be here when you’re ready to come back.

  6. Wendy says:

    I totally understand. Turned off TV. Don’t get my news fix on CNN. Csn’t even take TVs on at pizza place or bageland. Nowhere to be safe from media regurgitating the horror, the faces. Feel too much.

  7. Mary Jo says:

    I thought of u on Friday, when I grasped my face in horror when I heard that 20 children had been slain in Newtown…..I always remember you sayin how hard Columbine was for you. I have a 4th & 5 th grader only blocks from my house in school and it was hard not to run and get them. I am trying to learn from your experience with Columbine and not fall into sorrow, but it is so heartbreakingly sad, uff da!!

  8. Jane Hoffman says:

    I turned off all news, held my little boys, and poured my anguish into doing one small thing to help. Turns out it’s helping my heart too. If enough of us do something small we can do something immense. Please at least consider One Less Burden -here’s me talking about it: https://www.ksl.com/index.php?sid=23456305&nid=148&title=utahns-raise-funds-make-blankets-to-show-support-for-shooting-victims&s_cid=queue-1

  9. Kandis says:

    I wish you peace of mind and heart this holiday season. We could all take a lesson on gratitude, grateful our children are safe and healthy in mind and body. To those who suffer, you are my inspiration to help and to love. Without love, we’ve lost everything that’s ever been worth fighting for. Merry Christmas Ro!!!!

  10. ileen says:

    Bye for now Ro. I understand completely, but you are my ze, keeping the gloom away. I do like him too though. The scrabble show (especially the tile thing) still makes me laugh after all these years. After Words w/Friends it seems quaint to think of playing Scrabble on a physical board with people in the room instead of electronically, but watch this and enjoy:

  11. Dawn says:

    I’m in such a dark place. I’ve never experienced this before…not “clinically” depressed…just exhausted from emotion. I just want to grab my kids & never let go. I keep thinking of you after Columbine. I didn’t have kids then. Now I do. Now I get it.

  12. Shannon says:

    I thought of you on Saturday, Rosie. I remembered how Columbine plunged you into a deep depression. I hope that you are able to keep your head above water this time. Hugs and love.

  13. Maureen says:

    My advice, turn off the TV & pray. Be the light that those kids were &
    instead of sadness, do kind things each day for people.
    Like one of their moms said in an interview, these kids had no hate in them,
    so we must not hate. Live in their light & love your children, hug them tighter
    & soak up each moment we have . xoxo

  14. Gillian says:

    I have not watched it in a few days. But sitting outside the kids school watching my 4 year olds class in the playground, I am filled with such sadness. I am trying to embrace the little things like cuddling with my boys watching a Christmas movie. I hope to never see anything like this ever again. I hope that this will bring the changes that keep our children safe.

  15. t says:

    i thought i was sipping, too.. but whoops, i’ve already had three glasses full.

  16. liz1971 says:

    i get it, ro. that’s my hometown. wishing you peace. xo