i am not an early riser
never have been 
waking for school
was torture 4 me

the windows face east
catching the sunrise
my shades r up
this morning

april now
strong sun
returns
2 warm me

i never thought i would live this long
six years past my fear of forty
breathe in - breathe out
u r not alone

last night vivi place her hands on my cheeks
looking close she asked
mama - will u always have this face
even when i am a grown up

with misty eyes
yes i said
now forever
always

last week in miami
chelsea caught a seagull
while fishing

she had a bait fish on the line
was reeling it back in
the gull saw it and bit down

hook thru the beak
panic ensued
4 both the bird and us

parker held the rod
like a crazed winged kite
squealing thrashing alive

we used a towel
2 cover and calm
rolando removed the metal

away she flew

when chelsea was 6
a barnacle cover lobster
climbed up her fishing line

i never saw anything like it
freaky looking
totally scary

when she was 8
she spotted a blue octopus
off the dock

can i catch it mama
she asked holding her yellow fishing pole
yes i said
thinking it impossible

up it came
squirting ink
skin shifting slimy

chelsea - my 10 year old
who prefers horses 2 humans
an amazing kid

enjoy the new blog peeps
i will try 2 too
peace

one half hour
til the book report begins
this can b a positive experience
for myself and my son
i say over and over
in wishful preparation

h

i met an indian boy
at barnes and nobel
of course of course
his name was christian
a tiny touch of downs
an angel

i resist going to the mall
but whenever i do
it fills me
someone somehow

he is seven - looks 5
slight - he rocks slightly
left 2 right
soothing himself
smiling

i am christian this is my daddy
he told me - locking eyes
hello christian my name is rosie i am a mommy
hello rosie this train is thomas

(that tank engine table in the childrens section
a brilliant idea truly)

we chatted
i introduced chelsea and blake
who kept appearing holding a book
waiting for a yes or no
giving it to me happily
or grunting away to find another

as i left his dad stood up
r u from the tv - he asked with tender eyes
yes i said
he nodded

a long blink

spingle
god says hey
keep going

may we all release the desire to receive
for oneself alone

peace