this doc moved me so
a family trying
to move on and thru
each others pain and past

beautiful in every way
watch it

fire island
wow
amazing really
47 and just arrived

how is that possible
i have no clue
the ferry ride out
like stepping into longtime companion

ma'am - said a southern disbelieving  voice
yes i replied - smiling inside
i watched when i was a kid
he was still a kid - 20

left med school as his parents pulled the cash
when they found out his secret
gay as could be
he was now a dancing boy in gay heaven

i pointed him toward the point
The Point Foundation LGBT Scholars
one never knows
no accidents

the waves were beyond intense
thanks to a hurricane missed
it looked like hawaii
glorious perfection

the radio studio is being installed
staff hired
swag purchased - ready to send out
its all about free stuff

oct 5th
sirius xm
10 - noon EST
be there - aloha

we were suppossed to drive to dc
i couldnt
i asked to fly instead
so i could sleep in my own bed

i pushed for a later flight  - 4 30
which was cutting it close
and very obnoxious of me
but - lori said ok

 we get to the airport
 the flight is pushed to 5 30
they board us early
and we see the crew talking

there r 4 of them
young beautiful - fit tanned
in uniform
which i find comforting

 do u think we will get out of here
i asked

fame is weird
some smile when they realize it is me
every time it happens for real
i cherish it

the eyes
seeing someone lifted
wordless - organic
human 2 human

the pilot was handsome
he told me - he had been to the true colors tour
two summers in a row
a huge cyndi fan

well - i am supposed to be on stage at 8 pm in dc
any way i can make it?

hmmmm he said confidently
i can try

and he did it
this miracle man
he got permission to fly lower
cut the line of planes waiting
and he got the last slot out
before they closed departures at laguadia

people amaze me
 there r no coincidences
magic is everywhere
always

so i arrive in dc at 8:15
lori and i run  to the car
2 menopausal women lumbering
in a real rush

and there is a kid - parkers size
 running toward me with a video camera
smiling ear to ear
very cute

tmz - created by the guy who made tros
with me
jim - he created that show
imagine that

the boy filming was adorable
so excited to have found me
giddy with glee
i wondered if he was in high school

he had a friend shooting stills
flash... flash ...
they  know from watching tv
blinking bulbs add to the excitement

the kid was walking backward very fast
with a frenzied grace
but he was new to this game
off balance

he kept reaching in his front pocket
with his free left hand
searching for something important
  it the camera shake a bit

"....ummm how's the view ..rosie ....."
"yea - elisabeth.... u gonna talk about her on the radio...."

he almost tripped over the curb
careful i tell him - 2 much like a mother
he nodded - reflex

finally he got the thing out of his pocket
a tiny paper with his notes on it
like chelseas homework assignments
crumbled into a ball

he looked down
and just as i reached the car
read off his cheat sheet
"and u and ur wife... he said ...whats up with that"

marriage is hard i told him
when u r married 12 years
lemme know how it goes
it aint easy

and thats my comment
thats all i got for u
its not a movie
or a sound bite for tv

its real life
just like urs
a family figuring it out
and on we go

i missed dave - usually do - y bother
i caught hoarders
which - well - is hard to watch
the food rotting

i saw a trailer for a documentary
my mothers garden
i am trying to get a copy
heartbreaking - hoarding

i still am watching
popthatzit.com obsessively
odd - i cant watch the animal ones
only the human boils get me

the reaction of family members
as alien-esq mayo
squirts out of a loved ones back
creepy weird wild

speaking of which
saw district 9 last night
wow - a lot in that film
haunting

only 2 1/2 weeks of summer left
boo hoo
this one has been amazing
most importantly - i am very tan

peace out

they taped this
cabbage patch kid photo
to my comp screen
as we look alike
with r red glasses and all

it took me a while to see what they were laughing at
which
they found hysterical
then i saw it

funny ?
- very funny
one to ten? asks vivi
9.8

perfection must be protected
a ten - y try anymore
9.8 - room to strive
on we grow