dude, you were up late

i am not digging the non-stop rain
lugubrious

we're putting r cat to "sleep" monday
cancer in his face is huge
why do we still say sleep
putting him to death

i hate the resistance to death
all around me
trying to tell my mother -
if i have a massive stroke and
i can't speak, she decides
"ok, don't talk like that, i can't take it"

she is a brick wall, my mom
we get nowhere trying to plan for her
and you realize you were raised by a child
who will never grow up

and especially in medicine
she has a story every day
a kid who has no chance in hell
a struggling family
a bunch of doctors who don't know how to give up
a bunch of nurses trying to play therapist, social worker, or even wise old aunt

i get asked to do anesthesia
on someone 98yrs old demented, dying
for some probe somewhere
that's going to help whom???

so much unnecessary pain
caused by willful avoidance
of an absolute inevitability
it's so much easier for everyone
when it's talked about ahead of time

i hope you do this topic
on ur show

do i make u uncomfortable?
easy to connect with u
on the page
not so much in person

not sure why
but don't want to
ignore the obvious

have a great last show

peace